Dreams.

最近发的梦都有点不对劲。

总是梦到他，他，他...
不该梦的东西一堆。
可是梦到的时候是快乐的。
或许是太想要它发生了吧。
梦真的反映着我深处的渴望？些许吧。

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想到一首歌，很像现在的我和他。

Somebody That I Used To Know - Gotye ft. Kimbra

[Gotye:]
Now and then I think of when we were together
Like when you said you felt so happy you could die
Told myself that you were right for me
But felt so lonely in your company
But that was love and it's an ache I still remember

You can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness
Like resignation to the end, always the end
So when we found that we could not make sense
Well you said that we would still be friends
But I'll admit that I was glad it was over

But you didn't have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing
And I don't even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger and that feels so rough
No you didn't have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records and then change your number
I guess that I don't need that though
Now you're just somebody that I used to know

Now you're just somebody that I used to know
Now you're just somebody that I used to know

[Kimbra:]
Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over
But had me believing it was always something that I'd done
But I don't wanna live that way
Reading into every word you say
You said that you could let it go
And I wouldn't catch you hung up on somebody that you used to know

[Gotye:]
But you didn't have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing
And I don't even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger and that feels so rough
No you didn't have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records and then change your number
I guess that I don't need that though
Now you're just somebody that I used to know

Somebody
(I used to know)
Somebody
(Now you're just somebody that I used to know)

(I used to know)
(That I used to know)
(I used to know)
Somebody

打黑的字，是我的感觉。
老是在重复这首歌，老是在想，老是沉溺在这种牛角尖里。
每看你一次，心就会紧一下。
然后一堆的记忆翻腾，全部都出来给我报到。
但是我已经应对自如了。
要出来，就出来吧，笑过了哭过了，它们就会自然地滚回自己该待的地方。
强制压抑，也是没用的。
就等它自己淡化吧。
觉得在这件事上，找人分享得连自己都觉得很腻了。
心情翻腾的时候，还是适合自己一个人面对吧。
自己对自己说，没关系的，真的没关系的。
哭一下下吧，再对自己笑一下下吧。
在心里骂他一下下吧，再在心里赞他一下下吧。
不是每条路都需要人陪，不是每个问题都要问人怎样解决。
学着摔倒了自己爬起来吧。学着哭了就自己擦泪吧。
学着长大吧。